Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Holding Strong

I've had a couple people ask lately how the eating is going and realized I probably need to update on here.  For the month of July I have kept my weight exactly the same.  Well, I go up and down about 2-3lbs but never outside of that range.  I increased my activity quite a bit this month and found that I was hungry.  When I was hungry, I would eat.  I didn't look at how many calories or worry about it too much and so my body has just maintained my weight.  I'm happy with that.  I do still want to lose weight but I also want to know how to keep it the same and not stress about it either.  I want this process to take time so I have time to make it stick.

My diet consists of a juice every morning and then a smoothie or raw lunch.  I eat cooked at dinner.  For the most part that dinner is vegetarian but I have had some meat here and there.  Most of the time when I do try it I don't love it enough to eat much.  Last night I cooked some fish and couldn't eat it at all so just ate the sides.

Tomorrow things will switch up quite a bit.  I'm doing a 90 challenge with Fitlife.tv called Weak Bod to Greek God(dess).  This will consist of an eating plan and a workout routine.  It will start with a juicing protocol.  Starting tomorrow, for the next three days I will juice only and then will start adding some simple foods back in each day.  By day 7 I will be eating normal again, but a very clean and plant rich diet.  Sounds simple enough...I mean I ate raw for 30 days so what is 7 right?

Well, here's the kicker.  On August 4th I leave on vacation for a week to a cabin in Donner Lake.  Typically this would mean all the food and booze I want and days filled with lounging around.  I'm taking a much different path this time and will be watching my diet and continuing my work out plan.  I'm both nervous and very excited.  It would be amazing to come back from a vacation in better shape than how I went into it!!

I have 18 days until the end of the Summer Challenge and I plan on using each one to it's maximum potential!  Wish me luck!!  I'll be posting my final after picture on August 18th...stay tuned!!

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Hump Day

Yesterday blew, quite literally!  I was driving down the freeway and heard a noise.  At first I thought a log that was in the bed of our truck had rolled and hit the tailgate.  As I kept driving though I got a sinking feeling that it was the rear tire and this was confirmed when a mini van honked and flagged me down.

I pulled off to the side of the freeway and found that yes, my rear tire had blown out.

This is not the first time this has happened to me.  You see, I have had THREE OTHER blow outs on the freeway!  Not slow leaks, not on a residential street.  Always the freeway.  Thankfully no accidents caused my them.

The beauty of this incident is we now live in a world of cell phones!  My last experience had me playing frogger across the freeway so I could run to an emergency roadside telephone.  Thankfully I was able to pull over to the slow lane and stop in a wide open space so I could call Geico to send roadside assistance.

We've had Geico for about 4 years now and so far I love them.  They cover a lot of extras without an additional cost, roadside assistance being one of them.  They contract with various companies so you get someone different depending on what service it is you need.  When I called they said it would be a half hour till someone was there.  Immediately after hanging up my phone rang and it was the roadside assistance agent.  The man told me that since I was in a truck the spare was located under the truck bed and I would need to find the tool that would allow us to drop the tire.  My first thought was, "don't you carry one?" but I sucked it up and like the smart woman that I am...pulled out the manual hoping it would tell me where this tool was located so I wouldn't have to go on a witch hunt.  I easily found the tool, put it together and put it in the truck bed so it would be accessible when my "help" arrived.

After waiting about 50 minutes the CHP at the truck scales where I was pulled off asked that I try to move my truck to behind their building.  While I was in a space with room I was also still right on the freeway and there were cars hauling ass on one side of me, and trucks getting back on the freeway from the scales on the other.  He was worried that someone wasn't coming and I assured him that I had called assistance who was just running late.  When I moved the truck I decided to call the assistance again to let them know I was in a different spot.  I found out that he was still at least 20 minutes.  After two more phone calls for directions he finally arrived.  At this point I was pretty pissed and knew this guy was an idiot.  He got out of his car and told me to wait because he had to go to the bathroom.  Oh go right ahead!  I've only been waiting an hour and 15 minutes at this point anyway!

Once he was finished he came back and told me to go ahead and drop the spare tire.  Now listen, I'm no princess that expects everyone to do everything for me but I'm here in work clothes waiting for ROADSIDE ASSISTANCE and instead I get put to work as his assistant.  I bit my lip though and dropped the spare, then lifted it back up once he was finished.  When he got the spare tire on I noticed that it was flat and asked that he put air in it.  He told me I could get off the freeway at the next exit and put air in the tire at a station.  At this point I pretty much wanted to beat him with the tire iron but instead got in the car and left.  When I got to the station I had exactly $1 to use for the air machine.  My tire had 10psi....it should have 40!!!  My dollar got me to 30psi and I hit the road to the tire store.  Not before I firmly grabbed the wheel with both hands and screamed at the top of my lungs.

While this is not Geico's fault, it sure did leave a bad taste in my mouth.  I also learned that I need to start speaking up for myself a bit.  I am much like my Mom in this way and just take things as they come with ease and rarely raise my voice.  The worst part though is I internalize this and typically blow my top down the road over something ridiculous and it is NOT PRETTY.  When I blow my top I am 100% my father.  Friends who have seen this happen will tell you to stay far away if it does ever happen!  Probably something I should work on so I don't end up in jail for beating a roadside assistance man down with a tire iron.

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

My little Minnie

Leyton went to a birthday party on Sunday that was a Minnie Mouse theme!  His good friend Presley was turning 3 and her Mom had all sorts of cute stuff for the kiddos.  When Leyton got there he was given a pair of Mickey ears which he wanted NOTHING to do with.  To be honest though, at the beginning he wanted nothing to do with the party.  He loves going to things like that but once he gets there he gets very quiet.  Sometimes this passes quickly and other times he will spend the whole time just observing.  I used to struggle with this because I was such an outgoing kid, but now I just roll with it and let him figure out what he wants to do.

About an hour in he warmed up and started playing with the other kids.  It was about this time that he spotted the table of ears again and decided he wanted a pair, only he wanted to wear the Minnie ears.  As soon as he put those things on my heart melted.  He was just so dang adorable, especially when he jumped on the pink scooter that Presley got for her birthday.

Later I even got him to be comfortable in the pool!  He had all his clothes on and spent his time lounging in a raft, but I was so happy that he even went in the water and was having fun!  Plus, this picture totally melted my heart again.
On Monday it was time for Leyton to go to daycare.  One of his favorite things to do is find something to take to daycare with him.  Sometimes it's a snack, sometimes it's a book, sometimes it's a toy.  When he has something new though it is always what he goes for first.  On Monday it was his Minnie ears.  He was SO EXCITED to put them on and wear them to daycare and show his friends.  When we got inside though his two friends laughed at him.  As a Mom it was absolutely heart breaking.  I know that kids will be kids but this was my first encounter of Leyton being laughed at.  He took his Minnie ears off and walked over to me and hugged my leg.  I let him know that it was OK to wear the Minnie ears and didn't matter if his friends didn't like them.  Minnie ears were cute and they were fun and if wanted to, he should put them on.  I was so proud when he did and even told one of the boys not to talk to him because he wasn't being nice.  I know this won't be the first time that someone laughs at Leyton, but I hope he always able to stand up for himself and take it like a champ and continue being the cute little individual that he is!

Monday, July 22, 2013

A raw adventure!!!

This past weekend I had the opportunity to be a jet setter and cruise down to Southern California for a night.  It was such a quick trip, but I made the best of every moment that I had.  A friend of ours was driving down so I joined him on the ride and stayed on his boat in Marina Del Ray.

I convinced Eric to join me when we got into town on Saturday night at a raw restaurant that I have heard a TON about and follow in Instagram.  It's located in Santa Monica and is called M.A.K.E.  Oh my lord, this place was off the hook!  I figured since I was there I would take full advantage and participated in a 7 course tasting.  It was fantastic!  Such a wonderful way to sample a variety of menu items.  One of my favorites was by far the potstickers.  They were absolutely to die for and if I went back I would order these again hands down!

The final dish that rocked my socks off was the dessert.  

A churro ice cream with chocolate ganache.  Ugh, I am drooling right now just thinking about it!  So many times I think people hear that I like to eat raw and think that I must really be deprived but when you are eating food like this it is the exact opposite!  I hope to one day have a dehydrator so I can expand the raw food I can make at home!

The following morning I woke up and took Eric's bike for a ride.  I found a local juice shop, got a fresh juice and then headed to the beach.  I sat in this very spot for at least an hour!  It was so nice to just relax, listen to the waves come in and out and not have a care in the world.

Since I have never been to this area of SoCal I took my time going down the Venice boardwalk and taking in all the sites.  Boy are there some freaky sites on that boardwalk!

Overall, it was such a nice quick trip.  Good company, good food and good relaxtion!!

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Reap the rewards!!!

When I signed up for the Summer Challenge I was motivated to get myself in better shape, hopefully lose some weight and to keep me pushing myself.  I wanted to try some new things and see what I could do in about 90 days.  I didn't realize all that I was going to end up with though, and I still have a month to go.

If it weren't for the Summer Challenge I would have NEVER posted a picture of myself anywhere in a swimsuit.  It felt so crazy when I did it, but what I ended up with was an acceptance and love for my body at that very moment.  If I made it look and feel better then that would be a bonus.  I finally looked at myself from a different perspective and realized that I wasn't so bad.  I became so much happier in that moment and realized that even if I stayed the same I would be OK.  Now, I could care less about posting a picture of myself and how many people see it.  Don't get me wrong, I'll be keeping some level of clothing on, but as a swimmer being in a swimsuit was no big deal until I started hating myself.  I'm happy to not be hating myself anymore, and if someone can look at a picture and be motivated by it then that helps push me along too.

I posted the pictures on my blog and then started posting things on the Juicing Vegetables Facebook page so I could share with others that were on the journey or thinking of starting it.  When I did that, I was contacted by the Fitlife Team because, are you ready for this, they wanted to GIVE ME a juicer!!!  When I got their email I cried.  I was being rewarded for doing something good for myself!  I was being recognized and it felt so good and I will be forever grateful to them.

My health station at home is rocking now and so much goodness comes out of this area!!

Yesterday I went to Kohls to look at bathing suits and found a dress on a clearance rack.  It was $15 and a size large.  The color was a little funny for me but I thought I would give it a try anyway.  That damn dress fit like a glove.  I loved it, it was comfortable and I bought it and took it home.  I posted a picture online of myself in that dress and today I did another comparison with a photo I have never shown anyone.

Back in October of 2012 when I started getting healthy and juicing I took a picture of myself.  I was in a bra and underwear because there was no way that girl would have put on a bikini in a million years.

That is me, 51lbs heavier.  Most everything about me is bigger except for one thing, my confidence.  I'm happy to be the confident woman on the left now and plan to rock the shit out of that dress.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Now we're cooking with gas!

Last week I increased my activity even higher and noticed that I just felt hungry and slightly lethargic.  I decided it was time to add some cooked food and see what happened.  I've added really simple items, brown rice, roasted veggies, quinoa, tortillas.  I have to say, I love it.  I'm happy to be eating some cooked foods again and I feel like they do well for me for both my post work out meals and my overall digestion.  I was still having some digestive issues eating 100% raw and I'm not sure if it was still detox or just all the fiber, but my insides feel a bit more normal now.

I would say at this point I am eating about 90% of my food raw.  I still juice every morning and have a shake either at lunch time or at dinner depending on what is going on in my day.  When I do have my main meal most of the time it is also almost all raw.

Last night's dinner for example.

I baked a blue corn tortilla until it was crispy, spread some organic pinto beans on top and then piled on the fresh veggies and homemade salsas.  It was SO delicious, so messy and so filling!  The perfect post workout fuel.

Oh man, let me tell you about another post workout fuel!  During my workouts I typically drink about 32oz of water with some chia seeds in it.  The chia gives me some fuel to keep going but doesn't make me feel like I have food in my belly.  Recently, during paddle boarding, Scott was talking about Chocolate Coconut water.  I'm not a fan of coconut water at all but figured I would try the chocolate version.

HOLY AMAZING!  After I tough workout I love chugging one of these down and feel instantly better afterwards!  I highly recommend you try it out!

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Working Out

Let's talk about working out a bit.  I've been a swimmer my whole life.  Granted, I have taken breaks here and there but swimming for me is like taking a walk.  It just comes as second nature.  I can hop in a pool and swim and swim and swim and swim.  Swimming is great for me too.  It works on my cardio and slims me down.  However swimming does not tone me up.  I wanted to make sure that I got some muscle work this time.

I started with some cardio lift classes and really enjoyed incorporating some weights into the mix.  I knew though that I wanted to step it up even more.  So, I introduced a personal trainer to the mix.

I'm now three weeks in.  I just see Mike once a week for 30 minutes, but at times it feels like HOURS.  The first time I worked out with him I thought I was going to pass out after.  I realized that at the time, eating 100% raw, I would have to find a way to give my body something before and after the workout so I would not crash.  Water with some chia seeds was the perfect solution!  I don't like working out with food in my stomach so I wanted to save eating for after the workout.  The second time I worked out with him I felt good.  I felt strong and just kept pushing myself.

Last night was the complete opposite.  I felt like I couldn't do it.  There were moments my body would just stop doing whatever it was I was trying to do.  Something as simple as laying on a bench and holding my legs up became so difficult.  I would mind over matter it as hard as I could but there were many times my legs would just fall or my plank wouldn't hold.  I can't even begin to explain how frustrated I was.  I wasn't pissed at Mike for making me do these things...I was pissed at myself that I couldn't do them.  I think that's good though.  It's really giving me the drive that I need and pushing me to want to do more next time.  I'm also realizing how much I love working out with a trainer.  I could go in by myself but wouldn't push myself like he does.  When someone is watching over you and motivating you it really does kick you into overdrive.

I signed up for 8 sessions, and know that when the 5 I have left are over I will sign up for more.  I also cannot wait to see what a difference it makes at the end of the 5.  That is about when I have to take my official after picture for the Summer Challenge I am participating in.  I highly suggest that if you are considering a trainer workout, go for it!  I know I love it and it is exactly what I need.

Putting on shorts this morning and seeing these legs reminded me why I am doing this.  I can't wait to see them transform even more!  It's crazy to think that I haven't worn shorts in over ten years.  TEN YEARS!!!! I think my legs are happy to finally see the light of day!

Monday, July 8, 2013

The flood gates!

Wow, it's been a week since I last wrote but oh what a week it has been!  This weekend was a BUSY one. We had the 4th of July of course and also a Life Celebration party for my Mother and Father In Law on Saturday.  All of our family came to town for the celebration and there is nothing I love more than hanging out with all my family.  My youngest niece and nephew came to stay with us during the trip and of course, Leyton had a BLAST with them.

The week/weekend started out good.  On Wednesday I went paddle boarding for a couple hours, came home and worked out with the trainer and then swam.  It was a chock full day of fitness and fun and I loved every minute of it.  4th of July we had some family over for dinner and I did awesome, eating raw and staying clean and healthy.  I was so proud of myself for sticking with it and didn't feel uncomfortable eating slightly different than everyone else.  I was also super pumped because my weight had dropped into the single digit range, a place I have not been in a long time!

Then Friday came.  I'm not sure what happened on Friday but I started to feel like the odd person out.  I felt like a loner eating the way I was.  I felt isolated and not part of the group.  I decided at that moment that I didn't want to feel that way and so I just ate dinner with everyone.  I was careful and selective about what I had and felt good about my decision.

Then Saturday came and much like a small snowball rolling down the hill picks up speed and size...so did my eating.  I basically threw in the towel and just went for it.  Saturday night I had a very stressful moment at the beginning of the party and eased my stress with food and drink.  This continued into Sunday.  Last night when I went to bed I felt like hell.  I had a head ache.  My stomach was pushed out and very uncomfortable.  It was in that moment as I was lying there in bed that I came too and thought "what the hell just happened?!" I felt like I had been on drugs and just woke up in a very different place.  Only my drug was food.

Today, I'm right back on track.  Got the day started with my kombucha and juice and know that what happened happened and I can move on.  The thing is IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN.  I'm sure I will do it again sometime.  The key is realizing what is going on and stopping it before it gets out of control.  For me, that can happen very easily.  I'm not sure why, but I have a terrible relationship with food and so once I open those flood gates I have to find a way to get them closed soon before everything is flooded.  I don't think it's possible for me to keep them closed all the time.  That is life.

Here's the thing though, it does come at a price.  I don't want to make it all about weight and do plan on stepping off the scale more once I get under 200lbs.  I started eating badly on Friday night.  Today I am 6lbs heavier than I was when I weighed myself on Thursday.  That's 6lbs in TWO AND A HALF DAYS!!!  I'm not in the single digits anymore.  My digestion is out of whack and I'm sure my body is holding onto a bunch of crap.  Today I have cravings that I have to deal with again.  Thing is though, I'm not going to listen to them and I'm going to just consider this all water under the bridge.  A lesson learned.  I refuse to beat myself up for just living life.  Shit is going to happen and it's good knowing that I have come a long way from the person I was just over 6 months ago!


Monday, July 1, 2013

Raw Challenge Complete!!!

I did it!  I made it 30 days and did not cheat once!!!  I went away for the weekend, I went to parties, I went to a wedding and I held strong.  I really cannot believe that the month is over.  There were times it was hard, there were times I wanted other things, there were times I was detoxing (which still happens) but I jumped over each hurdle and made it to the other side.

I feel great!  My body loves the nutrients it is getting.  Yesterday, I had a brunch a The Green Boheme and got so busy in the morning that I forgot to juice.  Oh man, I felt off all day.  All I wanted to do was go home and juice.  I was seriously CRAVING that juice. I had my juice later in the day and felt rocking and rolling again.  That juice is such powerful stuff and I really can't imagine a day passing where I won't have my juice.

Those that have been here since the beginning know that I am also participating in a Summer Challenge with Fitlife.tv.  That challenge does not official end until mid August, but the bikini picture that you saw a month ago was because of that challenge.  Today I figured it was only appropriate to get that bikini back on my body and take some pictures to see what has changed.

Bam!  There you have it.  That's what one month of progress looks like eating raw and working out.  That is a 15.4 pound difference and a much healthier body.  I am currently sitting at 211.4lbs.  Yep, only one pound away from being in the single digits....and seriously ELEVEN POUNDS from being under 200!!!  That is INSANE!  When I weighed 260lbs that seemed a life time away and now it is just right there, waving it's hand at me and calling me to come on over.

When I posted the before picture I did it knowing that I might not have an after picture.  Maybe that would be it and I came to terms with that and became comfortable in the body that I had at that moment.  I started to praise it and thank it for all it had done for me and now...that body is rewarding me by getting more and more powerful.  I can't begin to express how important it is to stop being ourselves up.  I don't care if you are big or small....LOVE what you have!  Sure you may want to change it, but if you talk down to it everyday you are going to get NO WHERE.  Trust me, I did.

So here I stand, I challenge you all....take out a swimsuit, your bra/underwear, naked, whatever....and take a picture of yourself.  You don't have to share it with the world either, just look at it yourself.  It is SCARY as hell but when you are done you can sit back and look at it and find all the things that are wonderful and powerful about the body you currently live in.  Trust me, your body will be so happy for you when you just let all that negativity go.