I know I've said it before, but being healthy for me is sometimes like being on a giant slide....or better yet a game of Chutes and Ladders. I climb up, I slide down, I climb up, I slide down. I have been playing this damn game for YEARS and I'm not over yet.
Lately I've been "taking a break." Well, that's what I would tell myself. I just don't want to worry about it, think about it, etc. etc. The thing is I can't really do that, not yet. I have too many issues with food to just take a little break. Issues being food addictions. I don't know how to just have a little of this or a little of that. I have it and I want more and I'm going to keep having more.
Thankfully what I have learned is to not keep that up for very long. I've been feeling pretty awful lately, but not taking care of myself to make myself feel better. I mean, come on, it's just a little break AND I'm still working out like a fiend right? Nope. I was sick last week and then hurt something in my back and my activity level came to a screeching hault. Plus, relying on the activity is not going to get me anywhere. I will just be fit and fat. Diet is everything...EVERYTHING. If I'm not eating right I'm not going to feel better, look better, etc no matter how many squats I do in the gym. Just means I'm squatting more weight.
Today I left for lunch and was headed to a Mexican place that I love. I was daydreaming about chips and salsa and enchiladas. As I was driving though I made a choice. I chose to turn towards The Green Boheme instead and have a healthy alive lunch...not a dead sad one.
It was all I needed. Thank you The Green Boheme for reminding me what GOOD food tastes like and getting me back on the ladder!!