Friday, June 28, 2013

Cleanse Day 28

It's day 28, I'm actually going to just go ahead and write this in current day since it is going to be a little bit of looking back and a little bit of looking forward.  I seriously can't believe it's 28 days and that the month is almost over.  Of course, that comes with some decisions to make and I have been getting a lot of questions.

What am I going to do when the month is over?

I have thought a TON about this.  When I went into the raw challenge I didn't go into it with a solid goal of staying raw my whole life.  I went into it as a challenge I was going to do for 30 days to improve my heath and to generally challenge myself to do something different.  I have been asked a lot during the challenge what I was going to do after.  My thoughts were always stay raw at least 80% of the time.  I will never give up my morning juicing...I absolutely love it and know my body feeds off of that juice in a very positive way.  I also love having a big green smoothie as one of my meals.  From there I just figured I would eat a couple raw meals a week and a couple cooked meals a week.  However, I would stay completely clean and for the time being completely vegan.

Today, just two days away from the big finale...my thoughts have changed.  The fact of the matter is, right now, I just don't miss cooked food that much.  Sure I had a hurdle earlier in the week and a little detox to get through but since doing that I haven't thought about it at all.  I'm not tired of the raw food, I'm not bored with the raw food and the raw food tastes delicious.  I just don't feel ready to go back to cooked food.  You know what else raw has done for me?  I just don't think about food all the time.  I don't worry where my next meal will come from, I don't wonder and think about what it might be.  When I'm hungry I eat and then it's over and I move on.  No way of eating has done that for me in my entire life.  So, for now I stay raw.

Since I've had all this extra energy going raw I knew I had to funnel it into an activity.  Of course that meant getting back into the pool.  Right now I am swimming two days a week on Tuesday and Thursday morning.  Swimming wasn't going to be enough though.  I wanted to challenge myself to do something different because I always just fall back on swimming.  I hate swimming in the cold of the winter, so find myself getting stagnant because I don't do anything else.  I don't want that to happen the next winter season.  I started trying out a couple classes and found a cardio lift class that I really like each Friday morning, so I added that to the mix.  This week I decided to up the game even more and throw in a workout with a personal trainer one day a week.  I've never done this and after one session with Mike I can say it is worth every penny and kicked my ass! So my standard routine is swimming Tuesday, trainer Wednesday, swimming Thursday and the cardio lift class on Friday.  I also bike Leyton to school Monday through Friday.  It's not far but it's something.  It's likely I'll throw something in on the weekends, but that will be something outdoors like paddle boarding or swimming.

Overall I just have to say that I feel awesome.  I feel better than I have felt in a very very long time.  I know I have talked on this a million times but I didn't get here alone.  I've tried MANY diets and at times I have lost weight.  The thing is I never felt good, it never stuck and I ended up worse than when I started.  I also always did it alone.  However, this time I have not been alone.  There are so many of you on my team, cheering me on and pushing me along and it is empowering and keeps me motivated.  I do have a couple people though that I would like to thank directly so bare with me here while I give a little Oscars speech.

To Scott:  You are the trail leader to all of this.  Without you I would still be counting points, eating from boxes and getting no where.  You gave me guidance when I needed it and check in whenever you notice the path is rocky.  You did it all just because you care and I could never repay you for the life you have given me and the potential you have made me notice in myself.

To Brooke: I walked into your restaurant thinking I just wanted to try the place out and now I pretty much need a bed set up in the back because I am there so often.  You have opened my eyes to a world of food that is so delicious and doesn't have to be a life of "just salad please." Your positive light and energy is radiating and I feel more alive and more energized after each meeting.  Thank you for offering this program to the world.  You are doing good things.

To Bill:  Ugh, the hardest one to begin.  You have stood by me every step of the way through thick and through thin in every literal sense.  I was a young and fit girl when you first said you loved me and physically became something far different.  The thing is though, you still loved me.  You loved me when I didn't love myself at all.  If it weren't for that love you gave, I don't know where I would be.  You knew that no matter what I was externally I was the same old pillworm inside.  There are not a lot of men that would do the same.  I have started and finished and restarted every diet known to man.  I became the "boy who cried wolf" in the diet game and you never beat me up for that.  I'm happy to say that after spinning my wheels for over 10 years I finally got it babe.  I love you.

Thanks everyone!


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