Friday, June 28, 2013

Cleanse Day 28

It's day 28, I'm actually going to just go ahead and write this in current day since it is going to be a little bit of looking back and a little bit of looking forward.  I seriously can't believe it's 28 days and that the month is almost over.  Of course, that comes with some decisions to make and I have been getting a lot of questions.

What am I going to do when the month is over?

I have thought a TON about this.  When I went into the raw challenge I didn't go into it with a solid goal of staying raw my whole life.  I went into it as a challenge I was going to do for 30 days to improve my heath and to generally challenge myself to do something different.  I have been asked a lot during the challenge what I was going to do after.  My thoughts were always stay raw at least 80% of the time.  I will never give up my morning juicing...I absolutely love it and know my body feeds off of that juice in a very positive way.  I also love having a big green smoothie as one of my meals.  From there I just figured I would eat a couple raw meals a week and a couple cooked meals a week.  However, I would stay completely clean and for the time being completely vegan.

Today, just two days away from the big thoughts have changed.  The fact of the matter is, right now, I just don't miss cooked food that much.  Sure I had a hurdle earlier in the week and a little detox to get through but since doing that I haven't thought about it at all.  I'm not tired of the raw food, I'm not bored with the raw food and the raw food tastes delicious.  I just don't feel ready to go back to cooked food.  You know what else raw has done for me?  I just don't think about food all the time.  I don't worry where my next meal will come from, I don't wonder and think about what it might be.  When I'm hungry I eat and then it's over and I move on.  No way of eating has done that for me in my entire life.  So, for now I stay raw.

Since I've had all this extra energy going raw I knew I had to funnel it into an activity.  Of course that meant getting back into the pool.  Right now I am swimming two days a week on Tuesday and Thursday morning.  Swimming wasn't going to be enough though.  I wanted to challenge myself to do something different because I always just fall back on swimming.  I hate swimming in the cold of the winter, so find myself getting stagnant because I don't do anything else.  I don't want that to happen the next winter season.  I started trying out a couple classes and found a cardio lift class that I really like each Friday morning, so I added that to the mix.  This week I decided to up the game even more and throw in a workout with a personal trainer one day a week.  I've never done this and after one session with Mike I can say it is worth every penny and kicked my ass! So my standard routine is swimming Tuesday, trainer Wednesday, swimming Thursday and the cardio lift class on Friday.  I also bike Leyton to school Monday through Friday.  It's not far but it's something.  It's likely I'll throw something in on the weekends, but that will be something outdoors like paddle boarding or swimming.

Overall I just have to say that I feel awesome.  I feel better than I have felt in a very very long time.  I know I have talked on this a million times but I didn't get here alone.  I've tried MANY diets and at times I have lost weight.  The thing is I never felt good, it never stuck and I ended up worse than when I started.  I also always did it alone.  However, this time I have not been alone.  There are so many of you on my team, cheering me on and pushing me along and it is empowering and keeps me motivated.  I do have a couple people though that I would like to thank directly so bare with me here while I give a little Oscars speech.

To Scott:  You are the trail leader to all of this.  Without you I would still be counting points, eating from boxes and getting no where.  You gave me guidance when I needed it and check in whenever you notice the path is rocky.  You did it all just because you care and I could never repay you for the life you have given me and the potential you have made me notice in myself.

To Brooke: I walked into your restaurant thinking I just wanted to try the place out and now I pretty much need a bed set up in the back because I am there so often.  You have opened my eyes to a world of food that is so delicious and doesn't have to be a life of "just salad please." Your positive light and energy is radiating and I feel more alive and more energized after each meeting.  Thank you for offering this program to the world.  You are doing good things.

To Bill:  Ugh, the hardest one to begin.  You have stood by me every step of the way through thick and through thin in every literal sense.  I was a young and fit girl when you first said you loved me and physically became something far different.  The thing is though, you still loved me.  You loved me when I didn't love myself at all.  If it weren't for that love you gave, I don't know where I would be.  You knew that no matter what I was externally I was the same old pillworm inside.  There are not a lot of men that would do the same.  I have started and finished and restarted every diet known to man.  I became the "boy who cried wolf" in the diet game and you never beat me up for that.  I'm happy to say that after spinning my wheels for over 10 years I finally got it babe.  I love you.

Thanks everyone!

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Raw Challenge Day 24

Yesterday was an odd day!  It started off great, I was rocking and rolling and going about my normal routine.  When I got off work at 4pm I noticed that I was starting to feel sluggish, almost a bit light headed.  I ate a nectarine in the car figuring it was just because I was hungry.  I got home and still felt in a complete fog so I had another snack.  It didn't go away and so I ate and early dinner.  By 7pm I realized that whatever it was that was going on food was not going to fix it.

How did I feel?  I felt like I was drunk or stoned (not that I ever have been stoned Mom!)  I felt in a fog, I felt sluggish, I felt light headed like I as spinning and I felt heavy in my own body.  My solution.  I listened and I got in bed.  It was about 7pm and thankfully Bill took care of Leyton for the rest of the evening.  I was asleep by about 8pm and slept until 7:30am.  This morning...I felt fantastic!

I think last night was just another example of detox.  I've been eating raw for 24 full days, haven't cheated, haven't strayed and yet every once in a while I still will have a detox symptom come up.  One of the women in the challenge with me says sometimes she will actually taste foods that she hasn't had in a long time.  Our bodies hold onto so much and it really takes a long time for our bodies to release all of those toxins.

This morning I was on fire and motivated!  I woke up refreshed and ready to tackle the world.  I actually felt better than I had previously and am happy to be over that hurdle.  When I was going through it last night all my mind kept telling me was to eat and it wasn't telling me to eat raw.  It was coming up with a multitude of cooked foods that I should go eat.  I didn't listen.  It's interesting to me that this happened a day after I just addressed that I was having all these cravings.  I kind of think that was part of the detox.  I think not only do you detox the body but you also have to detox the mind.  Today my cravings are completely gone and I'm jazzed and fired up to finish this challenge strong.

I also took a picture today after trying on a BUNCH of pants that didn't fit anymore.  I put on a new pair that I got at the thrift that I hadn't been ready to wear yet because they were still a bit snug.  Today, they felt great.

The before picture was taken on September 22, 2012.  This was just about a week before I did my first cleanse.  That dress was a size 20.  I now wear a 16.  My pants at that time were a size 22, I now wear a size 16.  I'm not sure what size I'm headed for but where I am now sure feels good!

Monday, June 24, 2013

Raw Challenge Day 19-23

Oh my goodness I only have a week left!  I can't believe how fast this has gone.  Here is something interesting that has happened in the past couple days.  My cravings have gone through the roof!  I've had a pretty easy time as far as cravings were concerned but right now everything looks good.  I want rice, I want pasta, I want a bean burrito, I want pizza, I want sushi.  The list could go on and on. I spent some time trying to figure out what was going on.  Was it a late detox symptom?  The more I thought the more I realized, it's that annoying person in my head.  The one that knows the challenge is almost over and is reminding me of all the things I can start eating.  The thing is though, I really don't want all those things and my intent when this challenge is over is to not go gang busters on a bunch of cooked foods.  That little voice in my head is a self sabotager and I know I have to pay attention to it but at the same time tell it to shut up.  Many times I have taken this little voice for my own voice and done myself in.  I refuse to let that happen this time around!!

I've been much more adventurous in the food department at home the past week!  I've made myself some delicious meals.  Most of the time they are rolls of some sort using lettuce leaves as my wrapper but I did buy some tortillas from The Green Boheme so I could have some more variety.  Since I don't have a dehydrator I can't make these myself yet.  On Saturday I made a raw peanut sauce with tahini and used it on some spring rolls and oh my goodness it was heaven!  So I used it again Sunday night with some zucchini pasta topped with red bell pepper and cilantro.

This was seriously sooo yummy.  I could eat this again and again!  Thankfully it made a large portion of sauce so I can use it for many other meals this week.

In other news, this weekend I participated in an open water swim.  This is the first time I have done one in 12 years.  It was 1.2 miles and I was SO NERVOUS going into it.  I could feel my stomach spinning, but I knew that no matter what I would do it and give it my all.  It was on my list of goals for this summer and I wasn't going to let a little nervousness stop me.

In the end I did great!  I finished 5th for my age group which felt really good.  I'm already on the hunt for a couple others and hope to do one a month through the summer.  One of which is Donner Lake which is 2.7 miles from shore to shore.  I may have lost my mind with that one but I'm certain I will do it anyway.  I'm also excited because I signed up to work out with a personal trainer once a week and I start on Wednesday.

I have one week left, but I still have so much time to keep myself on track and keep kicking my own ass.  It feels good, in fact I feel better than I have in a very very long time.  If anyone reading this is thinking to themselves that they are tired of being tired all the time.  Tired of feeling hungover when they haven't even been drinking.  Tired of walking around in a fog and relying on caffeine to get you through the day.  Just know, there are other options.  The choices I now make have me feeling like a kid again and I wouldn't trade that for any indulgent food on the menu!

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Raw Challenge Day 18

It's official, I have found my weakness.  It's interesting how in every way of eating we all have a weakness.  Switch to vegan, I'm sure you will find something you love that you can't stop eating.  Switch to raw and the same thing will happen.  Now it might not be a box of oreos or donuts but there is a weakness in every way of eating.  I have found mine.

Nuts.  I found a brand of nuts that I can't get enough of.  They are by Living Intentions and are called Gone Nuts.  They are like crack.  If there is a pouch in front of me I have to eat the whole pouch.  I know they are raw nuts, but that is still not good.  I don't want to be having things I just can't stop eating.

What this has made me realized is that I have come a long way but I still have A LOT to learn.  There are addictive habits I will always have and I need to figure out how to learn to deal with those.  So for now, I won't be bringing pouches of nuts to work anymore.  I will portion them out and bring just that one serving with me!

I'm not going to beat myself up too much though, I'm currently sitting at 213.4lbs!!  I have 3.4lbs to be in the single digits and then you know what that means?  Being under 200 is just right around the corner.  I can't tell you how motivating that is!  That officially means that since going raw I am down 13.4lbs.....ain't too shabby for 18 days!

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Raw Challenge Weekend Away

I just had one of the biggest challenges of the entire 30 days.....a weekend vacation away!  There were a couple things that were going to make this easy:

1.  We were staying in a home so I could be in charge of my own food.
2.  I could pack my Vitamix.

A couple things that were going to make it hard:
1.  Feeling like an outsider.
2.  Eating out.

I tried to plan as best I could.  I took some produce with me and some juices.  I was on a mission though to make some dinners on my own while we were there.  It started off good on Friday.  I had my juice in the morning, my smoothie on the drive up and a snack in the car.  On Friday night I made a big spaghetti dinner for everyone and felt a little funny sitting there eating my veggie wraps.  They were delicious though and I got over it.

Saturday morning we all headed to breakfast.  The main purpose of this trip was for my husband to climb Mt. Shasta and they wanted to get in one good meal before they took off.  I cannot even begin to describe how difficult breakfast was.  While breakfast isn't my favorite time to eat during the day, breakfast is one of my favorite foods.  Watching them devour sausage and pancakes while I sat eating a fruit cup was tough.  I also felt like an outsider.

Let's be honest though, I think I felt more like an outsider because of my size and what I was eating.  In my mind I imagined these men that I didn't know thinking, "she didn't get that way eating fruit!" The thing is...I KNOW they weren't thinking that AT ALL.  In fact, I'm pretty certain they didn't even notice or even care but that was that inner voice coming out to beat me up.  Like if I wasn't the size I am I could be eating what I wanted just like they were.

I moved past it though, got a good walk in and made a raw dinner that night.  I tried my hand at pho with spring rolls and it was delicious!  In fact I had more of it last night and the hubs ate a big bowl full as well.  By Sunday I was rocking and rolling and feeling fine with my food.  In fact, I didn't think about the things I couldn't have at all.

We took Leyton to Burney Falls while we were there and it was so fun to see his excitement seeing a big water fall.  Tara took this picture of us and it is one of my favorites ever.  We kept trying to get him to smile and say cheese but he just wanted to stick out his tongue.  I started tickling him and during that moment Tara captured the perfect picture.  I will cherish it always and it's a reminder that it's important for Moms to get in pictures with their kids more.

Overall the weekend went great.  I stuck to my guns, got over my issues and had a vacation that was all about enjoying myself instead of being all about how much and what I was going to eat.  It was nice to have a vacation from food.

Thursday, June 13, 2013

Raw Challenge Day 12

The challenge is going great.  I realized it's going to be hard to write about it each day unless you just want me to post a picture of what I ate that day...but even that will get a bit boring.  So, much like life, I'm going to take it as it comes and just write to you when I feel like I have something to say or something to share.

While I went off the pick up meal plan from The Green Boheme this week so I could make some stuff on my own...I have made nothing on my own!!  Lucky for me The Green Boheme had some "buy one/get one" sales on meals and I got four meals for the price of two.  I still do make my own juice and my own smoothie in the morning and this Saturday I will be "cooking" a meal in its entirety for myself AND someone else!  Yep, I'm spreading the raw love.  I got myself a spiralizer on Amazon so I can make some pastas and can't wait to bust that thing out, although that probably won't happen until next week.

Today my friend Jennifer wrote this on Facebook:
"I truly believe life is too short to waste on body dysmorphia.  I know too many people who focus too hard on their bodies in a negative light.  I personally love my body in all its flaws and imperfections.  I am me.  What I don't like I work to change or I work to accept.  Please friends, start loving who you were made to be.  No one can be you but you.  Be an original, not a copy."

I seriously smiled from ear to ear and at the same time took a deep breath.  Truer words have not ever been spoken.  I have spent SO MUCH of my life beating up and picking apart my body.  You know where it has gotten me?  It got me a body that I liked even less so I could pick on it some more.  I didn't ever focus on any of the good things about it or any of the strengths.  Until I posted a picture of myself in a bikini.  I'm not sure why that was such a turning point for me, but instead of looking at that picture and seeing all the things that were wrong I was instead proud of that body.  In that moment I realized I had to start seeing myself different and I can't tell you the impact that it has had.  Do I want to lose weight still, yes.  The thing is I want to lose weight for the health benefits more than how it going to change my size.  I want to run after my boy and not feel fatigued.  I want to be a good example for him.  It's not about fitting in a tiny dress or wearing a bikini on the beach.  Here's the thing, if I want to wear a bikini on the beach then I'm going to do it right now!  Life is too short to wait for the perfect body and if it's the bikini that I want then it's the bikini I will have.  

Yesterday I went to Target and I bought a pair of shorts for the first time in YEARS!  I've had athletic shorts for water sports, but an actual pair of walk around shorts?!  Not a chance.  When I tried them on I instantly went to my upper legs and started seeing the cellulite, starting seeing the extra chub, the extra thickness.  Then I told myself to shut up.  Not out loud although that may have been funny!  Just in my head.  I decided to start thinking about positive things.  How long my legs are.  How far my knee has come.  How tan my skin is and how lovely I think my tattoos look.  So, I bought the shorts and I can't wait to wear them.  We all need to do that!  If you learn to love these things about you then you will find yourself so much happier all around.

Don't go on Pinterest and pin all these pictures of these women that you see as perfect and what you hope to be some day.  Instead why don't you start posting pictures of yourself and sing praise for how wonderful you are RIGHT NOW.  As Jen said, be an original not a copy.  You will spend your life miserable if you just try to copy.

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Raw Challenge Day 10

Yesterday was smooth sailing.  It's been nice the past couple days because I have noticed a decrease in the cravings that I was having.  I don't get as tempted when I make Bill dinner to just take a little bite.  The funny thing is, when this did happen last is was because I wanted some roasted asparagus!  Now don't get me wrong, I know that roasted asparagus is not bad for me at all, but I set my mind to do 30 days of raw and I'm going to do 30 days of raw.  In fact, I'm a third through!!!!  How awesome is that?!

In addition to eating raw I am also increasing my activity.  On June 22nd I am participating in a 1.2 mile open water swim in Folsom Lake.  I haven't swam a mile in open water since 2001.  I am both excited and nervous as hell.  I haven't had the chance to train as much as I would like but I am getting in the pool two times a week and I will finish that damn swim even if I come in last.

This weekend we are going out of town and it will be a new challenge.  Whenever I go out of town it is always the perfect excuse to put everything else aside.  I don't want to do that this time so I'm taking my blender so I can make juices and smoothies.  I'm also going to "cook" a couple raw meals for myself and have plenty of raw snacks.

Oh, let's talk about raw snacks for a moment.  Of course there is always fruits and vegetables but that gets boring to me after a while especially since I'm having so much of that at breakfast, lunch and dinner.  I like to have nuts for a snack when I'm not having something from The Green Boheme.  One of my favorites at the moment are these:

They are made with cashews, almonds, cacao nibs, agave and coconut.  They are all raw and sprouted nuts and they are DELICIOUS!  It takes all my will power not to eat the whole bag.

I also have always been a fan of dessert.  So, instead of just not having it I'm trying to have desserts that I can have.  The other night I whipped up some banana ice cream in the blender with frozen bananas, cacao nibs, goji berries and then topped it with a little mint.  It was so creamy and delicious.  I also played around with Leyton's popsicle molds and made some kombucha pops for dessert.  So refreshing and yummy!

While it's a challenge to eat raw all day every day it is also an adventure and I'm finding it quite fun to play around on my own some and come up with options that are both delicious and nutritious while also sticking to the plan!

Monday, June 10, 2013

Clean eating day 6, 7, 8 and 9

Wow, this is quite a catch up post!  Four days that I haven't touched on yet.  My son got sick and threw a little wrench in my blog schedule.  Also, since I have complete Mommy brain all the time I really do not have the ability to even remember all four of those days and what happened.  So, I can tell you went awesome!

I have not cheated once on my raw eating plan.  In addition to eating raw I have also upped my exercise.  I'm swimming twice a week, doing yoga twice a week and taking part in a 30 day squat challenge.  I'm up to 100 squats and must say that my ass and legs always feel a bit tired now.  I've never done squats in my life though so I am excited to see what it does to my body.  On top of that I walk or ride my bike when I can.  Yesterday I also got a chance to go paddle boarding again.  It was windy as heck and one of the hardest paddling challenges I've ever faced.  I felt so strong and powerful afterwards and for the first time I am feeling a bit sore.

The food has been great.  I am finding that sometimes with raw foods the flavors are overwhelming and I tend to like the foods that I guess would be a little more bland.  I had a red stew this weekend and could only eat a portion of it because it was just so strong in flavor.  I've been picking up meals from The Green Boheme for the past week, but this week I will be making some stuff on my own as well.  Here's wishing me luck on that one!!  I want to try and do some things that are not just salad....I can get really bored with salad.  I will still pick up some food from The Green Boheme though, I would miss it and there is no way that I could be on my own 7 days!!

Now for some exciting stuff.  Today I got on the scale and it read 218.4.  That's an 8.4lb loss since I started eating raw.  I also know that I have lost two inches from my stomach....TWO INCHES!!!  I cannot tell you how happy I am to be in the teens.  I haven't weighed below 220 in about 10 years.  Each time I have dieted in the past I always seemed to get held up and stalled out at 220.  This time I broke through the barrier and now being below 200lbs is firmly in my sights.  I can't wait to get there.  When I do the first thing I'm going to do is buy a swimsuit.  I don't care if it's the dead of winter!  Of course I'll take a picture of that when I do.

Thanks to everyone that has supported me, encouraged me and told me that I inspire them.  It really makes me feel good and you all really inspire me to keep going with this!  2013 is the year of CLEAN and the year of health!

Thursday, June 6, 2013

Raw Challenge Day 5

I feel like yesterday was the official day that my emotions turned around!!  Here's the thing, while I think that this does have something to do with the detox I also notice a general funk in my emotions when I'm not eating clean.  Eating sugar and processed foods makes me a bitch.  When I stop eating them, for a short time, I become a raging bitch.  On the outside though I keep up appearances and to everyone else (except maybe my husband and my son) I appear kind and nice.  While inside there is a lunatic just screaming to get out.  Realizing this is what really made me open my eyes to how much food does affect us.

I want to back up a couple years and talk about something that has been in my head this week.

I used to work at Java City.  I started working there when I was 22 and stopped working there when I was 32, ten whole years.  We have a friend Chris that worked with us, because ALL of our friends worked with us, and he was a vegan and did not drink.  Let me be honest for a second, I thought he was nuts.  He was and still is the sweetest guy, but REALLY?  You don't eat meat?  You aren't going to have a beer with us?  The whole concept just seemed absolutely insane to me.  He'd come to our dinners and bring his own food and  I know at some point we all poked fun at him. Teasing him about his tofurkey and the goodies he couldn't have when we would get them in at Christmas time.  Oh, but it was totally fine for us to stuff our faces with copious amounts of food, gorge ourselves on dip and then wash it all down with a 6 pack!  It's amazing how eye opening it can be when you just grow up and open your eyes a little.

When I did my first cleanse back at the end of September I had no intentions other than get healthy.  It was two weeks of a vegan and very limited raw diet.  When I finished I continued eating vegan until Thanksgiving.  During that time I also watched "Forks Over Knives" and "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead." Needless to say it was all pretty eye opening.  What if all these years I had been the crazy one with my standard American diet and Chris was actually the one on the path of getting it right?  I mean, those first three days of detox felt like I was dying.  How good could the food possibly be that I was taking in to make me feel like that when I stopped eating it?  Also, once it was taken out and my body had some time to recoup I felt AMAZING.  My energy was off the charts, my head was completely clear and I felt truly happy and content.

I see so many things right now in the media, on Facebook, online, etc about a whole foods plant based diet.  It's becoming mainstream.  It's becoming the diet that more people are turning to in order to turn their lives around whether it be because of excess weight or health issues.  More studies are showing us that the food that we have been eating for many years is truly the cause of many of our problems.  Let's be honest though, whole foods/plant based is a vegan diet.  Vegan diets have been around FOREVER but the stigma attached to them has always been that the person must be a nut job.  I truly believe that is why it is being called "Plant based" instead.  Now, don't get me wrong.  I think it's possible to eat a vegan diet that is very bad for you as well, and I'm sure Chris would agree with me on that since I have watched his diet transition to something very different than what he was doing 5-10 years ago.

Overall I'm still not sure what I am, I'm not sure that I will ever categorize myself.  I do think that after doing this 30 day raw it is going to be near impossible for me to go back to being a meat eater.  Could it happen?  Yes.  Does it sound appealing right now?  No.  I know I have said in a couple posts, but there is always that cheeseburger.  Truth be told, right before this raw challenge I had a cheeseburger and it tasted like the grossest thing I had ever eaten.  This burger from The Green Boheme last night was so much more appetizing than what I ate from Squeeze Inn.

Ultimately I think we all need to think about our food and how it makes us feel.  Are we tired all day?  Do we always feel irritable?  Are we not sleeping well at night?  If so, take some time to think...could it be the food you are eating and the drinks you are drinking that make you feel that way?  I'm sure finding out it was for me.  One of the most interesting things Chef Brooke has said is "What would your Garden of Eden look like?"  I'm pretty certain mine wouldn't be filled with boxes of mac and cheese and cows that I could kill later for a good burger.

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Raw Challenge Day 4

Today was a much better day!  The detox symptoms had settled down quite a bit and I was rocking and rolling in the morning.  I got up, got myself together and made my juice and smoothie for the day.  I got to work, cracked my juice open and BLAMO....

disgusting!  The worst juice I have ever made or had.  It was SOOO bitter it almost burned drinking.  I knew this was my only option though so I sucked it up and literally, well, sucked it up!  I didn't want to spend the morning hungry.  I used my normal combo but I'm thinking my apple wasn't sweet enough and I just ended up tasting all the kale and ginger.

Thankfully my smoothie at lunch was soooo delicious.  I put in mango, pineapple, strawberries, spinach, int,  flax seed, liquid minerals and water.  Brown in color by lunch time but absolute deliciousness in a mason jar. The thing is though, this thing is 32oz.  Also, by the time I am drinking it, it has thickened quite a bit so I tend to water it down while I'm drinking.  It just feels like so much.  It took me THREE HOURS to drink it all.  I was never too full and I was never was kind of perfect.

The best part about yesterday was it was Tuesday Night Dine and Demo at The Green Boheme.  Chef Brooke was showing us how to make pho and spring rolls and they were to die for.

One of the best things I've eaten there.  Even better, the recipe is EASY and I will be making it next week at home.  I'm determined to try and "cook" for myself next week to get a feel for what it will be like and this soup will be perfect.  I also loved the evening and getting the chance to meet some people and talk to both people that are starting to eat raw and those that have already completed a challenge.  I'm pretty certain Tuesday will be my nightly get away and I'll continue to do these demos, they are just so much fun.

After my evening I went home and relaxed.  It was my night off from exercise and I wanted to enjoy every lazy moment of it.

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Raw Challenge Day 3

Yesterday marked day 3 of the Green Boheme Raw Challenge.  When I woke up I knew it would be a better day because the detox symptoms had faded quite a bit and I just felt more awake and more alive.  It was in this moment that I thought, "I got this in the bag!"  Boy was I in for a surprise later that day.

I got going in the morning and made my green smoothie and my green juice.  I was a little afraid about doing this myself each day because I hate mornings to be honest.  I realized though that it's not really all that hard to do and since I have a bit more energy perhaps it will only get easier as my hate for mornings dissipates.

I got to work and was rocking and rolling all day long.  I felt full, I felt satisfied and had no cravings.  As I was driving home though I could feel my stress kick in.  Right now Leyton is a bear.  He's very defiant and out of control.  He doesn't listen and is getting in trouble all the time.  Sadly, this is making home one of the stressful places for me to be.  It also makes me want to eat.

When I walked in the door I had my snack for the day to curb the craving to eat and it totally worked.  I then made Leyton and Bill some spaghetti for dinner and plated my meal of enchiladas with rice and beans.  I added my own side of guac because I LOVE guacamole and thought it would be a perfect addition.  It was a beautiful plate.

We all sat down to eat and the struggles began.  Leyton wasn't listening and I found myself sitting there pissed that I couldn't just eat what they were eating.  I remember this happening quite a few times when I did the two week cleanse, in fact it would happen about every 3-4 days.  Each bite of enchilada that I took made me almost nauseous.  I'm not a big fan of mushrooms but so far have liked them in each meal I've had from Green Boheme.  This time though I could taste them, in fact they were all I could taste.  Oh I'm sure there were a ton of other flavors in there, but my mind got so locked into those mushrooms and the fact that I wasn't eating what my family was eating and it was making me almost sick.  So, I just stopped eating.  Instead I had about half a watermelon and a raw granola bar.  Sometimes when you are doing these things you just have to step away and get out of your head for a bit.  I know a half a watermelon and a granola bar isn't the most ideal dinner but it's what I needed to get through that moment.

After dinner the night only got worse.  I was extremely irritable and the kiddo was working every nerve.  At one point I just put my face down on the couch and started to cry.  Leyton broke a necklace that I wear all the time and it felt like the end of me.  In hindsight it was not a big deal but in that moment I had enough and my emotions just came pouring out.  Shortly thereafter Leyton was off to bed and I realized that in order to stop my emotional pattern I needed to get outside my head.

So I went swimming.

I haven't been in the pool in MONTHS.  Those first 8 laps were brutal.  My lungs were on fire and I was getting cramps but I just kept going and going and going until I had swam just shy of a mile.  I got out of that pool a new person.

This morning I am thankful that today is a new day, a time to get a fresh start and a time to make it better than the last!

Monday, June 3, 2013

The Weekend Raw Recap

Another weekend has passed and we didn't really do anything adventurous for me to share so I'm just going to focus on the raw challenge that I started.  I've decided to blog about this daily during the week, but on weekends I will take a break.  I have found the last thing I want to do on the weekends is get online to write so I'm not going to force it.

I officially signed up for the 30 Day Raw Challenge with The Green Boheme.  I have been dining at this restaurant for a couple months and decided it was time to take on the challenge.  The challenge is put on by Chef Brooke, who helps with the menu and supports through the challenge.  We have meetings once a week and there are Dine and Demo's during the week as well.  I knew I wanted support doing something like this so it will be worth every penny.

The great thing about The Green Boheme is you can also do a food plan and pick up as much or as little of your food as you want.  Since I already do juices and smoothies I decided to just pick up my main meals and snacks.

I started the cleanse on Saturday the 1st.  I didn't have any food yet from The Green Boheme (pick up is on Sunday) so I was on my own this day.  I start every day with a probiotic and since I don't know how to make this yet I just drink some Revive Kombucha.  This is one of my favorites and something I always have in the fridge.  After that I start the day with a 16oz green juice.  My favorite combo is: apple, celery, cucumber, lemon, kale and ginger.  There are MILLIONS of other things you can juice I have just found that I like my juices a little less sweet so the green versions suit me perfectly.  The fun part about juicing at home is even the kids who hates everything will drink some!

After getting my breakfast in I did try something new this weekend!  The River City Rowing Club was having a free rowing day so I went out and tried it.  It is right by my house and I have to say I LOVED IT.  I'm now on the fence about joining, but know that if I do I have to wait until around August or September because our summer is busy enough.  Plus, I still REALLY want a paddle board and think I'd rather put the money towards that.

For lunch I made myself a green smoothie.  I fill up an entire quart mason jar to the tippy top!

My green smoothies are always different and it just depends on what fruits I have.  A common combo would be berries, mango (or banana - I like using one or the other because these fruits add some thickness), kale (or spinach) and lately some beet.  The beet adds some sweetness, is great for the digestion and makes the smoothie BRIGHT red instead of green.  Oh, I also put in water, flax seed and some liquid minerals.  You can seriously play around with this.  Sometimes I add watermelon, sometimes pineapple, sometimes mint.  You really can't go wrong here!!  If I know I am working out then I also like to add some of the Garden of Life Raw Vegan protein powder.  It tends to fill me up more when I have that in it.  Overall though it takes me probably an hour to two hours to drink this.  I tend to drink half quickly and then sip the rest or even put it in the fridge and come back to it later.

When I get hungry again I have a snack.  This might be something from The Green Boheme or it might be some raw veggies or raw fruit.  I also got some raw kale chips and a super delicious raw cashew cheese that I'm in love with.  Basically, if I get hungry I eat something.  I am over the days where I sit around hungry and feel like I can't eat because it's not "time yet."

For dinner I am eating food right now from The Green Boheme until I get brave enough to try some meals on my own that aren't just salad.  Truth be told though, her food is so damn good I might not ever want to get brave enough!  I mean really, a dinner of a Caesar salad and pizza!

You can't go wrong with that.  For dessert I even got to have a lemon cheesecake and OH MY LORD it was a heavenly experience.

As for how I'm feeling, yesterday was dicey.  I was tired and cranky, common detox symptoms.  They are NOTHING like the first time around but I was in such a different eating place then.  It's now day three and I already feel better.  I know by tomorrow I will be rocking and rolling.  So far so good and honestly I'm just filled with so much excitement and motivation right now.  Posting that picture last week and hearing all of your outpouring of amazing messages and encouragements was so much love I had to store it away in a jar so I can tap into it later as well. It really means a ton to have people in my corner fighting along with me and cheering me on.  I will never do this alone again!  There is power in numbers!!

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