This journey is just that, a journey. I'm still walking along, without any map. Every once in a while someone comes along and helps me decide which direction might be best but for the most part I am figuring it out on my own. No one is going to tell me which way is the right way or which way is the wrong way. If I let people do that then I am going to fail, because I have to do this for me. I have to make my own decisions.
I've been playing around with a couple different lifestyles lately. That of a vegan and that of a raw eater. Now, will I ever call myself a vegan or a raw eater? I can pretty much answer no to that. Why? Well, because I just want to be healthy. Being healthy to me is going to be dabbling in a little of this and a little of that but for the most part it is going to mean making WISE choices. I'm not doing this to save the animals, I'm not doing this to save the rainforests, I'm not doing this for the ozone...I'm doing this for me. I have to remind myself of this all the time.
At the beginning of the year I made some monthly goals, and while I haven't talked about them much on here I have been doing pretty good with sticking with them. One of my goals was to do another cleanse, but much later in the year. I decided a month ago that I wanted to do one over the summer. Since summer is all about the most amazing produce ever it only makes sense that this next cleanse/challenge is going to be eating raw.
I recently discovered the most amazing restaurant called The Green Boheme and they help and guide you through a 30 day raw challenge. I will attend my first meeting this Friday and start eating raw on June 1st. I plan on writing about this daily if I can to let you know how I feel, what I miss, what I'm eating etc. Raw eating will consist of smoothies, juicing and raw meals with lots of fresh vegetables, fruit and nuts/seeds. I know it is going to be amazing and challenging all at the same time. I'm sure I will have moments of weakness when I think I can't do it another day and moments of appreciation.
This happened to be the perfect time because another website I follow quite a bit is Fitlife.tv. Drew is all about juicing and his messages are inspiring and motivating. This summer he is hosting a summer challenge and I have decided to sign up. This challenge will run until August 18th and based on before and after pictures and progress they will determine a winner to receive $10,000 in cash and prizes. I mean that would just be amazing to make a transition and to win some stuff in the process.
Now here is the kicker, to sign up I needed a before picture. They asked that it be in a swimsuit or a similar type of clothing. I decided if I was doing this, I was doing this in a swimsuit. I didn't want to hide in clothing and I wanted to be able to SEE the transformation even better. I then decided I didn't want that suit to be sucking anything in...I wanted to be able to see EVERYTHING. I have this bikini. This black bikini that I bought in Hawaii many years ago. It was a time I thought I was fat, a time I was embarrassed to wear a swimsuit but did it any way. Now I realize how ridiculous I was and I would give anything to wear this suit with pride. So I decided to wear it for my before picture. I want to watch myself become healthier in this very suit.
I made a tough decision today. It was hard enough just getting in the suit and taking a picture to send into this company that could potentially show it to others if I do well on this journey. The more I looked at this picture the more I thought, screw it. It's not awful. I've come a long way and have a long way still to go but damn it if I don't want your support through it. Damn it if I don't want you to celebrate with me. Here's the deal. I realized today that I don't think you are going to see this picture and think eww gross. I think you will look at it and think hell yeah, good for you Stacey. I think you might be proud of me for putting it all out there and maybe, just maybe it will give someone out there courage themselves.
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Think about that next time you see someone that might be uncomfortable in their own skin. Maybe think about that next time you are uncomfortable in yours.
Here's wishing me luck!!