Wednesday, May 29, 2013

The one in which I bare it all....

As you all know already I have been making some pretty serious life changes in the last 8+ months.  It started with a two week cleanse that opened my eyes and made me really evaluate where I was headed in regards to my health and I determined that I DEFINITELY did not like where I was going.

This journey is just that, a journey.  I'm still walking along, without any map.  Every once in a while someone comes along and helps me decide which direction might be best but for the most part I am figuring it out on my own.  No one is going to tell me which way is the right way or which way is the wrong way.  If I let people do that then I am going to fail, because I have to do this for me.  I have to make my own decisions.

I've been playing around with a couple different lifestyles lately.  That of a vegan and that of a raw eater.  Now, will I ever call myself a vegan or a raw eater?  I can pretty much answer no to that.  Why?  Well, because I just want to be healthy.  Being healthy to me is going to be dabbling in a little of this and a little of that but for the most part it is going to mean making WISE choices.  I'm not doing this to save the animals, I'm not doing this to save the rainforests, I'm not doing this for the ozone...I'm doing this for me.  I have to remind myself of this all the time.

At the beginning of the year I made some monthly goals, and while I haven't talked about them much on here I have been doing pretty good with sticking with them.  One of my goals was to do another cleanse, but much later in the year.  I decided a month ago that I wanted to do one over the summer.  Since summer is all about the most amazing produce ever it only makes sense that this next cleanse/challenge is going to be eating raw.

I recently discovered the most amazing restaurant called The Green Boheme and they help and guide you through a 30 day raw challenge.   I will attend my first meeting this Friday and start eating raw on June 1st.  I plan on writing about this daily if I can to let you know how I feel, what I miss, what I'm eating etc.  Raw eating will consist of smoothies, juicing and raw meals with lots of fresh vegetables, fruit and nuts/seeds.  I know it is going to be amazing and challenging all at the same time.  I'm sure I will have moments of weakness when I think I can't do it another day and moments of appreciation.

This happened to be the perfect time because another website I follow quite a bit is Fitlife.tv.  Drew is all about juicing and his messages are inspiring and motivating.  This summer he is hosting a summer challenge and I have decided to sign up.  This challenge will run until August 18th and based on before and after pictures and progress they will determine a winner to receive $10,000 in cash and prizes.  I mean that would just be amazing to make a transition and to win some stuff in the process.

Now here is the kicker, to sign up I needed a before picture.  They asked that it be in a swimsuit or a similar type of clothing.  I decided if I was doing this, I was doing this in a swimsuit.  I didn't want to hide in clothing and I wanted to be able to SEE the transformation even better.  I then decided I didn't want that suit to be sucking anything in...I wanted to be able to see EVERYTHING.  I have this bikini.  This black bikini that I bought in Hawaii many years ago.  It was a time I thought I was fat, a time I was embarrassed to wear a swimsuit but did it any way.  Now I realize how ridiculous I was and I would give anything to wear this suit with pride.  So I decided to wear it for my before picture.  I want to watch myself become healthier in this very suit.

I made a tough decision today.  It was hard enough just getting in the suit and taking a picture to send into this company that could potentially show it to others if I do well on this journey.  The more I looked at this picture the more I thought, screw it.  It's not awful.  I've come a long way and have a long way still to go but damn it if I don't want your support through it.  Damn it if I don't want you to celebrate with me.  Here's the deal.  I realized today that I don't think you are going to see this picture and think eww gross.  I think you will look at it and think hell yeah, good for you Stacey.  I think you might be proud of me for putting it all out there and maybe, just maybe it will give someone out there courage themselves.

It's just some big boobs skin in a suit.  It's not sucking in, it's not trying to impress you, it's not filtered in any way.  It's the skin of a woman that has lived 37 years.  A woman that has had three surgeries.  A woman that didn't walk well for almost a year.  It's a woman that is a mother that carried a little boy for 9 months.  She's a fighter and a lover all at the same time.

Think about that next time you see someone that might be uncomfortable in their own skin.  Maybe think about that next time you are uncomfortable in yours.

Here's wishing me luck!!

9 comments:

  1. You are amazing!!!! I'm so glad you did this. I can post the numbers and struggle with the real before pics that show all. So I applaud you!!! Good luck you got this!!!!!

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    1. Thank you so much, I appreciate you being along with me on this journey!!

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  2. So proud!!! Can't wait to read about all of your progress! And hoping to hear about some awesome recipes :-) You will own it this summer! Maybe we can do a mud run later in celebration! Xoxoxoxo

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    1. Caitlyn you are such a sweet heart and I already have a great recipe for you. I won't forget about that mud run!!

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  3. You.are.my.hero! Good for you! I can't honestly even remember the last time I wore a swimsuit and it's really sad, because I absolutely love to swim. You are most definitely an inspiration and I've loved reading about your journey so far. I'm on my own weight loss journey right now and sometimes I read things here that I swear I could've written myself. You are so rocking this and I'm looking forward to reading about this new step you're taking in your journey. Thank you so much for sharing it.

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    1. Couldn't have said it better myself. Stacey is quite a remarkable woman. She continues to amaze and inspire me to be a better woman, mom, and friend. She is my hero too!
      Melissa B.

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    2. Thank you so much to Jo-Anne and Melissa. Being someone's hero....wow, that brought tears to my eyes. It feels good though to give other women the encouragement to just be honest and put it out there. I did and the response I am getting back has been tremendous. Thanks for being on my team!!

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  4. I love this :) You inspire me! Your spirit and ability to be authentic are an amazing gift. I have you as a friend on Facebook, I believe we met through Etsy. I logged in today and immediately saw your post about doing this Challenge for "The Green Boheme" so I am like oh wow shes Vegan too, WOW, yay & I did what most people do I clicked your posting and followed your Facebook page to your blog. Good luck, your amazing I know you will do well.

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    1. Thank you Aimee, to have just one person say they are inspired makes it all worth it!!!

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