On Thursday I leave with my girlfriend Wendy for the Stagecoach Festival in Indio, CA. I cannot even say how excited I am. We said last year that we should go, and thankfully we did just that! The shows start Friday and end on Sunday.
Yep, that is 4 days without Leyton. Yeah, yeah, it's 4 days without Bill too but I've done that before. Leyton, well he's my baby. I haven't left him for more than 24 hours since he was born. I know it's going to be wonderful to have some time to myself, to have some fun and to refresh. That doesn't mean that inside I'm not sad about it.
Boy, I am just filling you with stories lately of me being sad and crying but I think because the crying part is kind of a strange territory for me I find it interesting what makes me cry.
This morning I was getting ready and told Leyton it was almost time to go and he ran away because he wanted to stay home. He wasn't feeling great and just wanted to spend the day with Mommy. I continued doing my things around the house getting ready to leave. About 5-10 minutes went by and I realized I hadn't seen Leyton. I started walking through the house looking for him, but I couldn't find him. The panic set in. I was frantic through the house looking all over for him and couldn't find him anywhere. I went back through rooms and suddenly there he was, in the spare bedroom on the bed just sitting there. I think he had been in the closet and finally got bored and came out.
The minute I saw him I started to cry. I became completely overwhelmed. He looked at me and said, "Why are you crying Mommy?" I replied, "I couldn't find you and Mommy got really scared and sad." He looked at me with a smile and said, "Mommy, I'm right here, you don't need to cry anymore."
Oh man, I cried harder. Ahh, the joys of motherhood.
Let's not forget that I cry at cheering crowds so lord only knows what is going to happen at Stagecoach. I might be the first person that cries at a Toby Keith performance.